Perhaps I need some sort of paradigm shift…

It must be true – people have very short memories otherwise why we continue doing the same sh!t over and over again.

I must have very short memories, too. I have been doing many (same) things over and over again. One day when I feel sick of doing the same things, I usually make a grand statement such as ‘it is the time for another paradigm shift’ – it means simply ‘I am very bored with doing the same sh!ts everyday and I need to do something to refresh / revitalize myself’. By the way, how do I typically refresh / revitalize myself? There are couple of ways – what have been used the most is such as fine dining, fine wine, a great ‘conversation’ with someone who understands/admires by view, etc. However, there are times when my attempt of ‘paradigm shift’ miserably failed. Why? Because I get bored with the process of this ‘paradigm shift’ as it has now become a regular routine of my life.

Why do I require doing this ‘paradigm shift’ often? It’s simple – because lately I have become less determined and passionate about what I do. In other words, when I say ‘I will do it’, it means ‘I do it right now and completely’ – this is how it was. Now is more of…. like… Errrr…. there is another day. I will do it later. What have I become lately? How did I manage to inherent this ‘element’ (i.e. laziness and lack of discipline) of Gen-Y while I am actually a proud Gen-X? Is this ‘element’ commonly shared with both generations but somewhat I managed to disguise myself as ‘I do not have such element’ until now?

Perhaps I am getting old. My life is not filled with a lot dreams any more. Actually my life is filled with a lot of executable tasks of achieving my dreams. Would you this consider as a good thing because I got everything planned up and I know what I’m doing? Well, you could say yes but to me, at least personally, me getting old means I am losing the ‘buffer’ – the room for me changing things to fulfill my dreams is getting smaller as I get constrained by many things, including my family.

Is this normal? Perhaps it is for ordinary people. Perhaps I am one of the ordinary people after all. Nevertheless, I just felt that I have just lost another differentiator of mine that differentiates myself and ordinary people. Perhaps I am becoming ‘ordinary’ lately and it is meant to be like that as I get older.

About Brendon Cho

조후혁의 개인 블로그입니다. 1994년 18살때 호주로 부모님과 함께 이민을 왔고 2002년 통계학과를 졸업 한후 통신 회사 Exetel에 2004년 사원으로 입사, 2009년 최고재무관리자 (CFO)로 임명 그리고 2010년 MGSM에서 MBA를 수료 했고 지금 내부 감사장 (Head of Veracity)로 일하고 있습니다. 현재 3명의 자녀를 둔 아빠이고 시드니에서 살고 있으며, 클래식 음악과 글쓰기를 좋아합니다.
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